elfpie

You might not be noticing it, but you're gate keeping cycling. E-bikes created a bridge to an activity that would not be feasible or up for consideration for a lot of people.

E-bikes make riding easier and that's the point. I have done a lot of things to my bike to make riding more enjoyable. Give me a professional bike and I'll be for sure faster and less fatigued at the end of the same route, or I might take the opportunity to go further in my explorations.

I'm worried for your mental welbeing. You are here. You are still seeking connection. That's good. But your surroundings and the people you count on are not the best, probably not even good enough.

You will benefit from having more perspective and from finding out what your specific needs are. The goal is to focus on yourself. Perspective is learning about the experience of other people and try to apply that to your life. Finding out your needs helps to understand what makes you move and the direction you go.

For example: You say the person that left you was your world. I believe you. The world may seem very large, but our reach might be very short, even limited to our own selves. What does that person have that fulfill you? How can you get that without them?

I don't know you, so I don't have the right words. Like the others here, I wish you well and hope you can get to a tomorrow in which you are happy.

• Something to think about: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZohcMJrvGs
• Something from someone that always cheer me up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UT4PRHQZcgQ

I went for rides with other people before, not many. I live in a small city and its hard to find a group with the same mindset. Riding in the middle of the nature is really the best.

I combine strava and komoot to find new routes by myself. Other riders are a better option in this case I confess.

That's too bad. A bad fall will definitely affect your perception. I had never thought about this kind of accident when people declared cycling dangerous. I hope you find something else to enjoy as much.

It's astonishing to see the hatred getting so big that it starts affecting the very people who hate and they don't even care. This law is just an excuse and a weapon to hurt people with governmental support.

I'm trying hard to choose the right words to respect your position on the subject. If I end up offending you let me know.

I just wanted to comment about you saying you're not questioning your gender here. The way I see it, you might be, although not in the way I think you mean.

You are a woman. You define your gender by the way you choose to live your life. When you use terms like masculinity and femininity, the definition comes from the society. I see you questioning the gender by your actions, by trying to deconstruct your conceptions.

I've heard a lot that there isn't only one right way to be trans. There isn't only one right way to be cis either. Question yourself, don't judge yourself too harshly, and find your truth.

I know this wasn't what you wanted, but I thought I should say anyway.