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My parents were away in Flordia visiting some family while they still could so I had the house to myself. It was wonderful. No tv noises, no news, no political talk, no constant misunderstanding/misinterpreting each other. It was peaceful. They got back last Saturday so it's back to the same old routine.

I also had a vasectomy while they were gone so it was nice to have some quiet time while I recovered. The pain is practically gone now and soon I'll forget it even happened. Happy to have gotten it done. Feels like a lifelong weight had been lifted off my back.

The birds are starting to return. I can hear the mourning doves in the morning now. I'm looking forward to the return of our pigeon family that like to nest in our balcony planters. They've been returning for years now and we think the children have also started nesting in our other planters. Thankfully they are super chill around us so they usually just watch us when we are out on the balcony.

Met cool people at a queer event last Saturday. Tried to keep in touch but I had a panic attack when I went to message one of them and it put me off trying again for several days. Couldn't sleep for a few days so that made it worse. Finally managed to text the one I really wanted to talk to but I guess I took too long because they never replied. I don't feel like I can ever be around people.

I guess I'm still recovering from leaving my old friend group. Not bad people, but neurodivergent in a way I'm too socially incompetent for. Yesterday I flubbed my words and accidentally expressed the wrong sentiment, and I immediately felt the panic wash over me, because last time I did that, I caused a friend to have a nervous breakdown and start like... rewriting his childhood memories to match what I accidentally said, since it contradicted his lived experience.

Friendship is so high stakes, I always feel like if I say the wrong thing I'm going to ruin someone's life. I hate being lonely but I don't know how people can stand it.

I started the week very sleepy lol.

• slept more than i should and still felt tired
• had to take 10 books to the library (4 that i had taken and 6 that i'm donating) and they were heavy af
• when i came back, i realized that i forgot to buy cat food, so i immediately had to leave again (thankfully the vet is only some blocks away)
• i felt so sore when i finally got to sit down at home, but i got to eat the yummy bread i had baked earlier ☺️🥖
• i walked 9369 steps/7.11km in total, and i'm gonna walk close to the same amount tommorrow too + swim around 1.2mts! 😆
• eepy

Since Lemmy has gained a bit more traction in Finland recently, I started writing a guide in Finnish that will later be published on my blog. The structure is as follows:

• What Lemmy is, short history
• The 2023 Reddit blackout and its consequences, my own experiences
• Communities and how to find them
• Lemmy's interoperability with Mastodon and other Fedi platforms
• Instances and communities to be recommended

I'm glad I live somewhere that's never had daylight savings. The concept still perplexes me.

I've been having fun with comics again. It's been way too long since I've spent several hours a day reading them. Unfortunately, it appears my fatigue doesn't like that too much, so there are many breaks necessary, otherwise I burn out.

Still, it's nice.

Another week of having things look up and then not going anywhere. I think I have a trajectory; this would not be the first time the timing was off. So now I await whether I run out of money or not. Historically, the universe steps in on deadline.