Alice

joined 11 months ago
[–] Alice 2 points 5 hours ago (1 children)

My beloved teaspoon... When I'm too lazy to fish the tablespoon out of my coffee tin and clean it... three teaspoons

I would truly starve to death if I didn't have a teaspoon

[–] Alice 2 points 10 hours ago

My pre-workout is equivalent to two cups, and I usually drink it around 5-5:30am. However I have no perception of time on my days off so for two days a week I drink random amounts of coffee all day forever. Sometimes I remember to get decaf.

[–] Alice 2 points 10 hours ago

It was OK I guess. Did some petsitting, made a little money, bought a new desk. Thought a less claustrophobic setup might help me get back into art. Then I read the news and I was like, literally who fucking cares? The chips in my drawing tablet are made by slaves and my PC is a tool for multiple spy companies. Countries I'll never visit are being decimated by capitalism to provide the fruits and veggies for my healthy diet that I'm supposed to eat to be less depressed.

The internet mocks me for calling my reps instead of overthrowing the government but none of them are overthrowing the government either.

This is selfish but I wish I'd die in a horrible accident so I at least don't continue being a cog in this machine.

[–] Alice 3 points 10 hours ago (3 children)

Jesus, I'm sorry. I hope you're able to find treatment.

[–] Alice 4 points 1 day ago

I have less money and customers are meaner, I guess? That's how literally every new development affects every working class person

[–] Alice 4 points 2 days ago (2 children)

People who seem too desperate for approval too soon after meeting, ie the person who asked if I thought they were "problematic" and "a bad person" for their taste in media after our first date.

Maybe it's because of my own mental health history, I have OCD and I've engaged in that behavior before too. If I'm with someone else who does it I'm liable to relapse and it turns into a two-person misery spiral. Maybe someone a little healthier could just reassure them and move on, but I'm not there yet.

Also, I don't date anyone who just got out of a relationship. Their ex will change their mind and take her back and I'll look stupid 😭

[–] Alice 2 points 2 days ago

Personally I think that we need to make life happen locally regardless of what they do, but I understand if someone else thinks otherwise.

That's something we definitely agree on. I think our differences are basically semantic; I can't detangle the name and symbology of America from a structure I don't believe in, but I know that's not universal. At the end of the day we both care about our home and the people living here.

[–] Alice 2 points 2 days ago

I'd want to pirate every drawing program I never got a chance to try, plus the fancier writing software. Gonna have a lot of time to learn both.

I've seen shockingly few movies and TV shows so maybe all the media I can get my hands on, too.

[–] Alice 3 points 2 days ago

If you can, try to get to bed an hour earlier tonight. I do that when I lose track of my sleep schedule.

[–] Alice 2 points 2 days ago (1 children)

Good idea, thanks! Especially about the collar, I bought hers back before I even considered leash training, so it's not the most visible. It'd be helpful to have something reflective if she ever got away from me

[–] Alice 9 points 2 days ago

Wasn't it Terry Pr⍺tchett who specifically put in his will that all of his unfinished works (on hard drives) were to be crushed with a steamroller?

People were so upset about that and I understand why, but creators are so dehumanized and treated as entertainment machines, I think being able to release or withhold your work on your own terms is so important.

I still feel really weird knowing that Kafka's writings were released against his wishes after he died. I can't even say it wasn't a net positive, and I know he's long dead so it doesn't really affect him, but it feels like people don't want artists or writers to be able to keep anything to themselves. We're not only entitled to everything they've already made, but everything they could potentially make. How many times have you heard people say "we were robbed" because a standalone work didn't get a sequel, or a TV show didn't get a dozen redundant seasons? Like if we like someone's work, we're owed more of it.

[–] Alice 6 points 2 days ago

Yeah same, I live in a small town and in addition to marketplace, I need to check it every couple months to keep up with local events. My town has a website with a calendar but they never add anything besides "weight training at the senior center", no matter what else is going on

 

Genuinely can't figure out how other people develop active social lives. The most common advice I get is to look on Meetup, but I found pretty much one group and while I had fun, halfway through the event they started making fun of liberals for not having friends. I'm genderqueer so that ain't gonna work out. Everything else on Meetup is scientology garbage.

I go out and do things on my own and try to be open to people who approach me, but on the rare occasion someone wants to talk to me it's because they're horny and they've mistaken me for a straight woman. I can be out in the mud picking up litter and someone will strike up a conversation about the environment, something I'm interested in, and it turns out it's because they think I'm doing this to get the D.

I'm getting crazy bored. Does everyone just work a 9-5 and then go home alone? Except for when they have sex with the occasional random straight man??

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I tried /r/suicidewatch on that other site, but even though I made it clear that I was looking for advice and encouragement, the only two replies I got were in agreement that it doesn't get better. 😐 /r/depression is even worse by the look of it.

Does anyone know of any good websites, or is it the nature of all of them that they just turn into a crabs-in-the-bucket nightmare? I'm trying to get better but it also gets isolating pretending I'm not depressed all the time.

 
 

Never done this before, turned out to be a lot of fun :)

 

I'm 30 and horrible at keeping friends. I don't know if it's the unschooling or the autism, but I'm told I come across as hostile when I think I'm being nice.

I know the basics. I make eye contact but not too much, I ask people about themselves and their interests to show I'm interested, I don't dominate conversations with myself and my own interests. I try to be a nice person people might want to keep around, too— I give money when someone's in a pinch, I remember birthdays, I help move, et cetera.

Eventually people either people tell me I'm being a dick in ways I never realized, or more likely, they just eventually stop messaging me back.

The one thing I'm sure I struggle with is body language. I've read a lot that you need to mirror the other person's body language, but I don't know how to do that. Especially since I normally meet people at work and we're usually pushing big carts around and moving products and I'm just not thinking about my body as something expressive, just practical.

I'm sure I have many more blind spots that I'm not even aware of.

So like... are there classes for this? Some kind of specialized therapy? I don't really want to try anymore unless I can stop being a dick

 
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‘Family values’ bill is adopted despite being denounced by the president, rights groups and the European Union.

Kesaria Abramidze, a trans model, was murdered the day after the bill passed. Even if the president vetos it, this law already has a body count.

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So basically I was unschooled, and the amount of books I've read in my life is embarrassingly low. It was never emforced like in a school, and with my family's religious hangups, I never tried getting into new things because I never knew what would be deemed "offensive".

But I'm always interested when I hear people talk about both storycraft and also literary criticism, so I want to take an earnest stab at getting into books.

No real criteria, I don't know what I like so I can't tell you what I'm looking for, other than it needs to be in English or have an English translation. Just wanna know what y'all think would make good or important reading.

ETA holy shit thanks for all the suggestions! Definitely gonna make a list

ETA if I reply extremely late it's because it took me this long to get a library card in my new locale.

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