SpaceFox

joined 5 days ago
[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 7 points 5 hours ago

It’s no problem. There’s a lot of things I do/did for attention. When I was younger I used to take the wildest drugs I could get my hands on and brag to my classmates. I use social media a lot and I've got some friends that I use. Nightclubs and bars are good. There's always a lot of attention to get from there.

Ever since I was a teen I've found my self being very promiscuous. It's the best way to get attention from others.

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 6 points 7 hours ago (2 children)

Shouldn't windows or Reddit be sorry for that?

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 4 points 7 hours ago (6 children)

Why would I apologize for using Reddit? Or windows?

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 4 points 7 hours ago (9 children)

It's like admitting defeat. I don't remember the last time I said "sorry" to someone tho.

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 6 points 7 hours ago

"How does your lack of ability to connect manifest?"

Very superficial and short term relationships. It can be very isolating at times. I can connect to others but only if there really close to me.

"Do you feel connected to characters in books or movies/do their hardships affect you?"

They don't. There just made up.

"Are you doing any kind of exercises to change patterns around thinking/relating?"

Sometimes I think about others like there me. I know that sounds odd but helps me understand them. I try not to make everything about my self. I listen to others.

"How do you feel NPD hurts you?"

Yes, that's what I'm trying to get across in this thread. NPD is like a drug there's highs and lows. Sometimes when something good happens I just have this feeling that I deserve it. That I'm worthy but with that there's come downs. Sometimes things don't go to plan and makes me mad because how can I be wrong? It's hard to accept there's something wrong with you because you put yourself up on a pedestal and every mistake feels like your cracks are showing. You think that everyone else is as interested in you as you are.

"Last one, don’t answer if you don’t want, but what caused you to seek out professional help?"

I was having suicidal thoughts. I stopped seeing the psychologist cuz I lost interest.

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 12 points 8 hours ago* (last edited 7 hours ago)

No problem. I'm obsessed with how others look at me and I need constant validation and attention. I'm very driven by short term pleasure. I care more about the immediate validation and attention from others then long term relationships.

I found it hard to relate to others. Everyone else is like a secondary character or a NPC. I know this may sound bad but I found it hard to care about other people. I love my family and friends but it's hard to give anyone else attention.

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 8 points 8 hours ago

I use it a lot. I love when people interact with my posts or just comment. I can't get enough of it although that can be said for most people these days.

 

When I was 20 I was diagnosed by a psychologist with having Narcissistic Personality Disorder. At first I was in denial about but over time I come to terms with my narcissism and the diagnosis started to make sense to me. A lot of my problems can be traced back to my unrealistic self image and lack of ability to relate with others.

There's a lot of stigma towards NPD. I hope by making this thread I can help others understand that having NPD doesn't inherently make you a bad person and NPD hurts the person with it as well.

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 1 points 2 days ago

Have a good schedule

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 2 points 2 days ago (1 children)

There is no reason to be bad at cooking in 2024. I mean Gordon Ramsey has a cooking channel for christ sake

[–] SpaceFox@lemmy.ml 4 points 2 days ago (3 children)

I'm ok with animals and I don't think I'm that funny. I really can't think of any strengths. Maybe cooking as I now have a job at Burger King which I'm pretty excited about

12
submitted 4 days ago* (last edited 2 days ago) by SpaceFox@lemmy.ml to c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
 

I'm starting to think that my life is over and I don't want to live anymore. As of writing this I am a 23 year old woman with no qualifications or education. I have learning disabilities and my IQ is just 76. I struggle with things like talking, maths and spelling and I can't find a job.

When I was a kid I knew I was different. Things that were easy for the other kids to do took me ages to learn. Kids used to make fun of me because of the way I talked and in general I could fit in. As I got older my learning disabilities become more noticeable. I was diagnosed with ADHD and low intelligence and therefore struggled academically but my dad refused to put me in a special education program because he thought it would be an embarrassment. School was very hard for me. I would work my ass off just to get C's and B's and my father was very abusive. He would expect me to do well in school and if I didn't he would beat and punish me. I had to repeat the 7th and 9th grade but I eventually graduated but very poor grades and no qualifications. When I was around 15-18 started to do drugs like weed and alcohol just to cope.

I left my parents house when I was 19 and went to live with a friend. I have very little money as I'm addicted to drugs and my lack of education makes getting a job practically impossible. I don't see my life going anywhere and when I'm not on drugs I'm miserable. My brothers and sisters have done so much better then me and it makes me so jealous, angry and ashamed. I know this may sound cringe but I honestly can't do this anymore.

EDIT: I now have a job at Burger King as a cook. It's not glamorous but it's some money.

view more: next ›