SpaceFox

It’s no problem. There’s a lot of things I do/did for attention. When I was younger I used to take the wildest drugs I could get my hands on and brag to my classmates. I use social media a lot and I've got some friends that I use. Nightclubs and bars are good. There's always a lot of attention to get from there.

Ever since I was a teen I've found my self being very promiscuous. It's the best way to get attention from others.

Lol

Shouldn't windows or Reddit be sorry for that?

Why would I apologize for using Reddit? Or windows?

It's like admitting defeat. I don't remember the last time I said "sorry" to someone tho.

"How does your lack of ability to connect manifest?"

Very superficial and short term relationships. It can be very isolating at times. I can connect to others but only if there really close to me.

"Do you feel connected to characters in books or movies/do their hardships affect you?"

They don't. There just made up.

"Are you doing any kind of exercises to change patterns around thinking/relating?"

Sometimes I think about others like there me. I know that sounds odd but helps me understand them. I try not to make everything about my self. I listen to others.

"How do you feel NPD hurts you?"

Yes, that's what I'm trying to get across in this thread. NPD is like a drug there's highs and lows. Sometimes when something good happens I just have this feeling that I deserve it. That I'm worthy but with that there's come downs. Sometimes things don't go to plan and makes me mad because how can I be wrong? It's hard to accept there's something wrong with you because you put yourself up on a pedestal and every mistake feels like your cracks are showing. You think that everyone else is as interested in you as you are.

"Last one, don’t answer if you don’t want, but what caused you to seek out professional help?"

I was having suicidal thoughts. I stopped seeing the psychologist cuz I lost interest.

No problem. I'm obsessed with how others look at me and I need constant validation and attention. I'm very driven by short term pleasure. I care more about the immediate validation and attention from others then long term relationships.

I found it hard to relate to others. Everyone else is like a secondary character or a NPC. I know this may sound bad but I found it hard to care about other people. I love my family and friends but it's hard to give anyone else attention.

I use it a lot. I love when people interact with my posts or just comment. I can't get enough of it although that can be said for most people these days.

Have a good schedule

There is no reason to be bad at cooking in 2024. I mean Gordon Ramsey has a cooking channel for christ sake

I'm ok with animals and I don't think I'm that funny. I really can't think of any strengths. Maybe cooking as I now have a job at Burger King which I'm pretty excited about

How can I control my own thoughts? I can't choose what I think. The truth is that my brothers and sisters are just more accomplished then me. There all in university or graduated. They've all got there $hit together. Why me? Why can't I be like that? I hate to think what they think of me. Don't get me wrong I love my brothers and sisters but I don't like talking or seeing them because it fills me with such shame. They all look down on me and makes me so mad and sad at the same time. I just don't understand why I didn't turn out like them.

I'm not good at reading books. I've tried in the past but I can't. They always take forever to read. The words go everywhere and they get so boring.