Asklemmy

People are disappointing, even family

That America is a failed country, and there's no point to staying and fighting if I can get out

I'll never be the same again after my brain injury.

In some ways thats a good thing but Im not 100# sure I'll get all the walking stuff back exactly

There will be a last time we do something in our lives for everything

Realizing that I'll never be able to achieve any of my previous hopes or "dreams", it's too late, and that life is fundamentally uneven and unfair.
Similarly, realizing there's no sense of "karma" or balance in real life, it's just a crutch that people can use to justify or rationalize things.

They never loved me and I'll be ok without them

That i wasnt born the opposite gender and that i was born in a transphobic country

Loss of friendships can be the result of very minor events that triggered someone or were not communicated well. This does not mean that anyone is necessarily “bad” or lacks care for the world. That can be true but it is not always true. The hardest thing to come to terms with is that despite the above in many cases there is no way back to friendship with that person

probably that the majority of people are self serving and extremely fake. it's pretty insane how many "activists" there are that hate the people they supposedly want to protect.

That ultimately, no matter how many people I surround myself with, I will always feel alone.

Knowing the people who I ideally want to date or would have a better chance of dating, will forever be out of my reach because of missed opportunities in the past. For example, there's a couple of friends I know I would've loved to date. One of them I could've had but nobody said anything to eachother and it had been 14 years ago when that chance came and went. We just mesh well together and can go the distance when it comes to conversing and getting along. But, I'm forever friend-zoned because nobody said anything when emotions were high back then.

And another thing is accepting the fact that you aren't as compatible with some of your friends when you thought you were. The painful part is realizing this after so long. I had a massive friend exodus last year. I've lost friends whom I've been with for 15 years, 10 years, 5 years and 3 years in that order. And it was simply because at somepoint, we just ignored the part where we weren't as heavily compatible as we once were. And it showed the more times we were at odds with eachother. Hell, I lost another friend this year who I had hit it off well for 3 going 4 years and it's the same example.

I relate to your situation OP.

I have ADHD and I think the hardest part about living with it is coming to terms to the fact that I'll have to constantly put in more effort to meet the neurotypical standards for school and work. It's exhausting to have to mange my symptoms in a world where every task throughout my day is designed to be preformed within a set time frame and getting off-track, even for a little while, even if it's unintentional is seen as incompetence. I struggle to be able to let myself relax especially when I'm overstimulated due to this. Luckily, my country is pretty progressive and workplaces are schools are required to provide accommodations but unfortunately, that doesn't mean that everyone will take my needs seriously.

That I will never, no matter what I do or how hard I try, be cis. I will have to go through stuff cis women would never even think about. I saw a great video on YouTube about this but I can't find it right now.

I suffer from combined anxiety, agoraphobia, and panic attacks. Going for a walk is a nice and relaxing thing for most people, but for me it's a battle from start to finish. I can't be too far from a "safe" place, like my house or my car, or I begin to have panic attacks.

I've had to come to terms with the fact that the outdoors are difficult for me and I have to constantly go against my instincts and force myself outside.

I won’t be a father and possibly not even an uncle.