Fire Emblem Three Houses again - So much changes between the 3 different stories in that game, it is so much bigger than I initially realized. When my partner was talking about what happened in their playthrough and it didn't at all resemble my Golden Deer playthrough I realized I'd have to get back to it one day.
SuperSteef
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Love seeing PE and LoD on here, both incredible games. I would also love to see Xenogears get a remaster that actually fleshes out a lot of the stuff left on the cutting room floor. I know we got Xenosaga - another one that would be great to have on modern hardware - and Xenoblade Chronicles but I truly miss that PS1 era of RPGs sticking with the turn-based model while trying to find ways to be unique.
My friend, I was where you are now and have been multiple times. It took realizing that the people who made me feel that way were the very people who were supposed to love me. I'm sorry for your parent's response to you, that is unacceptable. You are someone who needs help and needing help is not a weakness, it is just part of being human. Also, as their child, you didn't ask to be born and you certainly didn't ask to struggle with depression. You need support right now and I think you've done the right thing in looking for people to chat with.
When I started to be more open about my struggles, a lot of people who I always thought "I don't want to bother them with my presence" came forward and started making sure I felt included. Despite how your parents have made you feel, there are people out there who will love you for you and want to you to get better and will help you in their ways.
You aren't alone. There are far too many of us in the same situation. Medication, if it is available to you, can go a long way to helping you feel better. It isn't the solution but it is a band-aid. If therapy is available to you, talking to someone impartial can truly be a life-saver. They can help you re-contextualize events and show you how and why the way you were treated wasn't fair. A lot of things you may have internalized that feed your depressive beast can get unpacked and be a lot easier to deal with going forward.
"Just be happy" is the most ableist shit ever. I was told the same by someone I was close to and they even admitted to me they struggled with depression, which really rocked me when I was young and didn't have a name for what I was dealing with. If it were that easy, people with cancer would "Just not have cancer".
Good luck and I hope you can find a support network who actually care about you and want you around. There are definitely more people who will fall into that category as your life goes on than you probably believe right now. Be kind, especially to yourself.