After my dad passed away, I was left with my mother and sister who are two peas in a pod. Unfortunately, that kinda left me out in the cold as we have very opposing personalities. My family was all older and most have already passed, the remaining 3 I haven’t spoken to in years thanks to a family fallout when I was a child.
I joined the military and kinda had work friends but usually only one friend I really spoke to. Same went for college- but by then I was a single mom so it was mostly school/work/kid 24/7.
After graduation I started working full time and honestly always kind of avoided making too close of friends at work. That’s just a shit storm waiting to happen. I spent most of my time hanging out with my kid and my dog doing things we enjoyed doing. I gave up on any meaningful relationships outside of my immediate household and instead focused on what made me happy.
I finally hooked up with my partner a few years ago and not much has changed. We have very few friends and really spend most of our time together as a family. We put our effort into making our home somewhere we want to be and it’s paid off a lot. We have very little interest in spending time elsewhere. It makes us fairly reclusive but we’re ok with that. My child spends some time with friends and participates in school, sports, and hobbies to build her soft skills and relationships.
The relationship with my family somewhat recovered over the years, but only to neutral territory. I don’t spend much time interacting with them and that seems to be ok with everyone involved. I spend less than 24 hrs a year with them.
As for “wtf is life?” I think it’s whatever the hell you want it to be. I stopped giving a shit about how other people defined a good life and started defining it for myself when I was too poor for anything I was told would make me happy. I find happiness in the sunshine, a good cup of tea, or being able to have 5 minutes of peace to enjoy a hobby. I don’t need anyone else for that. The world may be burning but unless you have a fire extinguisher for it, you may as well bust out the marshmallows and enjoy it while you can. Life’s too short to be upset about shit you have no control over.
Some places do but there’s not much I can do about that. I mean, have you seen the world lately? Cameras are everywhere. I may not like it but it’s a fact of life. But I’d rather have a camera on me in a stairway I’m passing through than have someone mentally assault me with forced small talk while trapped in an elevator with them.
Honestly I stare at most cameras. It’s creepy af to be constantly surveilled so I guess the best I can do is try to creep out the watchers too once in a while. Though AI and facial recognition are slowly stealing this small joy from me as well. :/