Oh wow, kudos for sitting down and writing this piece out. Damn, that's a long post.
But seriously though, all I could think of when I "skimmed" through the text was that you got too obsessed with the building blocks of a story and realised that you are critical towards that they're all the same shape and/or made by the same material. So you stand very close to the wall and squint instead of backing up a few paces to get a good view of the actual construct in it's entirety.
Relax and just be happy that we have the luxury in this day and age to appreciate gaming as a medium. Or don't, whatever makes you happy :)
S.T.A.L.K.E.R Anomaly on Ironman mode. Starting my 8th run. Haven't even made it close to chernobyl with any of my past characters yet. I honestly like it, makes the endgame that much more intriguing when you get closer each run.
If anyone is interested in a hardcore survival FPS game that is highly customizable to your preference give it a try. It's free to download and it is a standalone game so no need to own any previous titles ๐