Anomandaris

joined 1 year ago
 

Sorry in advance for the depressing thread, but I don't have anyone in my life with trans experiences and I need advice on what I'm feeling.

As much as we might wish we could waking up one morning with the body of a gorgeous k-pop idol or something, the fact is reality doesn't work that way. And this kind of thing is what I'm struggling with the most, the fact that I'm always going to struggle with body hair and masculine features.

I was on HRT for one month, and still have the relevant medications in my bathroom, but stopped. Partially due to lack of support, but mostly due to self-doubt and lack of confidence that I'll ever be happy with how I look. I just couldn't see the woman inside coming out.

I kept asking myself: what would be worse? Constantly wishing I could successfully transition, or transitioning and having to live with never being able to pass? This became additionally concerning with the uptick in abuse against trans people.

Part of me feels guilty for stopping and falling back on the safe suffering I already know, and a part of me feels guilty for giving up, part of me is scared of all the new things I'll have to learn if I re-start, and another part of me is concerned about how my partner would feel if I started again, I know she doesn't approve but doesn't want to say so.

For those of you who are/were larger, or taller, or older, or more hairy, how did you manage these concerns? For those of you without resources in your life to aid your transition, how did you get support?

Thank you for reading.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 7 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (1 children)

But a massive amount of them are. Small and solo creators on Youtube or Twitch need to conform to the rules of Google and Amazon, and even medium size creators are influenced and coerced by the precedents and market trends set by the much larger corporations.

And it doesn't matter if not all content is provided by large corporations, those large corporations employ the most people, and dictate in a lot of ways, the rules of the employment market. It's due to their habits and practices that wages are artificially low and expenses are inflated for record profits.

Until corporate greed is managed properly, consumers will always struggle to have enough expendable income to pay content creators, and therefore will always be searching for free content.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 13 points 1 year ago (3 children)

They are absolutely not separate issues. How can I be expected to shell out $15 per month for 10 different content subscriptions if I can only just afford to put food on my table?

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 18 points 1 year ago (5 children)

Surely you can reverse that and point out corporations whining and moaning about people expecting free content when they're barely paying their employees enough to afford to pay their bills.

The problem starts with corporate greed, hoarding revenue by keeping employee's salaries to the minimum acceptable, providing as little functionality as possible to reduce overheads, double dipping by selling a product/subscription and then selling their customer's data, and then complaining they aren't getting more money for what little they are doing.

Then inevitably a little guy like Kbin comes along and suffers because the internet is filled with soulless, ultra-capitalist corpo scumbags.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 24 points 1 year ago

RedHat, CentOS, Debian, Ubuntu.

All are good choices.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 1 points 1 year ago

I don't think so, the ARPG I have in mind wouldn't be open world, would have no campaign and much less focus on story overall, a much more detailed crafting system akin to Path Of Exile but perhaps less punishing, and much more focus on stacking up as many extra modifiers as possible rather than being limited, push your team to get the best rewards.

No timegating, no daily/weekly quests you must log in for, the only limitation is your skill.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 2 points 1 year ago (2 children)

I've been thinking about an ARPG based around World of Warcraft's mythic dungeons.

Scalable, multi-player, enhanceable instances where completion of more difficult versions of the instance rewards in better gear and crafting options.

The idea is that the content is created for a 5-man party (1 tank, 1 healer, 3 dps) but you can try solo it, or bring up to 20 people to massively increase the difficulty and the rewards. Instances would follow WoW dungeon's formula of trash mobs (which drop crafting materials and have rare drop chances for certain gear) pathing you towards a succession of bosses with very different, complex mechanics with stages, signaled abilities, and skill requirements.

This would include a character levelling system to unlock new class abilities and mechanisms, a party finder system, certain dungeons locked behind character level and the completion of other dungeons at a certain difficulty level. Perhaps you could extend it to add in "world bosses", massive 200-man bosses with a chance at particularly unique loot, but of course that would require a certain level of infrastructure and a game population making it justifiable.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (3 children)

To provide a different perspective to everyone else, I would say that it's not the right time if you want everything to "just work".

I tried out Ubuntu 22.04 just a couple of months ago, and only one game of the several I tried "just worked". Everything else either didn't work at all, or required hours of searching and troubleshooting and problem solving, with mixed success. And I'm not a technophobe, I'm a software developer with experience in system support.

People keep saying there's lots of guides out there for most things, and that's true. But that doesn't necessarily mean the guide will work for you. I tried multiple "guides" to get my games working and most of them didn't help. Either they were too old, or there was a step that I couldn't complete, or I completed the guide and there was an error that isn't mentioned in the guide. Or any number of other problems.

Regardless of what people say, it may not be as simple as "switch to Proton and install Lutris". In the end I just got frustrated with having to work so hard to get my own computer to do the things I wanted it to do, and so I reverted back to Windows and had all my software working as expected within a couple of hours.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 5 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (2 children)

Honestly I don't get why this is so surprising, humans have been drawing graffiti for thousands of years. There's plenty of Ancient Roman graffiti to attest to that.

While yes, we should discourage it where possible, we also need to acknowledge that it's just as big a part of human nature, and culture, as the colosseum itself.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 12 points 1 year ago (23 children)

That's fine, but what happens when this expands with the the increasing effects of climate change? What happens when Arizona, New Mexico, and Texas health insurance costs triple because of the risks of extreme heat? What about New Orleans or locations prone to extreme storms or hurricanes?

Huge patches of countries all over the world are soon to become uninsurable because climate change makes it too dangerous to live there.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 2 points 1 year ago

tbf I think a lot of the Starcraft devs moved to work on Stormgate so hopefully that'll cover the RTS portion.

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 1 points 1 year ago

And once again millions of jobs are saved from Bill Gates' nano-5G-AI-homoglobo agenda, praise god ong ong fr fr 100

[–] Anomandaris@kbin.social 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

To me this just illustrates that using tests meant for humans to test AIs produces questionable results.

Of course an AI is going to be able to produce a larger number of original ideas, it's designed to have much more data at its disposal than humans and be much better at using it, and correspondingly with access to more data it can produce more unique combinations from that data.

If anything, the fact that it's simply near the top of the pack rather than massively outstripping human minds, which are essentially hunks of wet meat with a slight electrical charge, demonstrates how far this technology has yet to go.

 

Does anyone have experience getting tModLoader to run properly? When I try it with the Steam snap, using Proton, the game loads fine but when I get in to a world it goes black except for the UI.

Other threads have a few solutions, like using the Steam linux runtime instead of Proton, and running the start-tModLoader.sh file from terminal before trying to play. But these didn't work for me.

Does anyone know how to get it working?

 

Spurred by the move to non-proprietary software I swapped out my Windows 11 for Ubuntu 22.04 LTS, and now 3 out of the 4 games I regularly play don't work well enough to play. I haven't checked games I only play occasionally, but I expect issues there too...

  1. Path of Exile via Steam - Works perfectly, in fact maybe slightly better than Windows
  2. Overwatch 2 via Lutris - Runs but with significant stuttering making it difficult to play
  3. Diablo 4 via Lutris - Cannot run due to "Graphics Initialization failed" error
  4. Melvor Idle via Steam - Runs but with minor stuttering and randomly breaks requiring complete re-install

I've Googled, and tried the most common solutions to these problems (like configuring Lutris to use VKD3D v2.8, running the script that Lutris provides with Overwatch, and add D4 to Steam and run from there) but no real positive changes.

For the most part, the rest of Ubuntu has been fine, but I don't want to be locked out of doing things I want to do on my own machine... Would appreciate any tips before I get too impatient and go back to Windows!

Thanks in advance.

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Anomandaris@kbin.social to c/scifi@kbin.social
 

It's a slightly click-baity title, but as we're still generating more content for our magazines, this one included, why not?

My Sci-fi unpopular opinion is that 2001: A Space Odyssey is nothing but pretentious, LSD fueled nonsense. I've tried watching it multiple times and each time I have absolutely no patience for the pointless little scenes which contain little to no depth or meaningful plot, all coalescing towards that 15 minute "journey" through space and series of hallucinations or whatever that are supposed to be deep, shake you to your foundations, and make you re-think the whole human condition.

But it doesn't. Because it's just pretentious, LSD fueled nonsense. Planet of the Apes was released in the same year and is, on every level, a better Sci-fi movie. It offers mystery, a consistent and engaging plot, relatable characters you actually care about, and asks a lot more questions about the world and our place in it.

It insists upon itself, Lois.

 

Are there any plans for a "shelf" to store collections of magazines? i.e. I don't want to see politics on my main feed, but if I add a bunch of political and news magazines to a politics shelf, then I can go switch to that.

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