this post was submitted on 25 Jun 2023
24 points (100.0% liked)

Creative

4267 readers
1 users here now

Beehaw's section for your art and original content, other miscellaneous creative works you've found, and discussion of the creative arts and how they happen generally. Covers everything from digital to physical; photography to painting; abstract to photorealistic; and everything in between.

(It's not mandatory, but we also encourage providing a description of your image(s) for accessibility purposes! See here for a more detailed explanation and advice on how best to do this.)


Subcommunities on Beehaw:


This community's icon was made by Aaron Schneider, under the CC-BY-NC-SA 4.0 license.

founded 2 years ago
MODERATORS
 

I do, most of the time. I've always felt creative, I always have thousands of ideas and concepts for anything, be it a drawing, a song or a text of any kind, but regardless of what it is, anytime I sit down and try to make something I hate it, I hate it so deeply it disgusts me and kills any will to continue whatever it is I'm doing.

I tried to write some lyrics some days ago, it felt okay-ish until I wnt back and read it, at which point it feelt as if I was seeing someone else in the mirror: all the things, the ideas, the feelings I thought I put in it just aren't there. It feels hollow, alien, repulsive.

I know I can't be good as a beginner, but I've been a beginner in everything since I was a kid. And I kept trying and trying and trying, and every time I felt that feeling of disgust and repulsion, outrage even. I just can't stand it anymore, and maybe "art", or rather artistic self-expression, isn't my thing? Maybe I keep trying to open a door that simply isn't the one I'm supposed to open?

Did you ever feel this way and overcame it? I don't even care about making whatever I make public, I just want to feel as if I gave shape to something I thought or felt.

you are viewing a single comment's thread
view the rest of the comments
[–] doogiebug 1 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I'm glad someone else mentioned that Ira Glass quote, I always go back to it when I feel like this.

It's a normal feeling, and not a reason to not make things. It sounds like you want to make stuff, you have the drive. I know it's hard, and I still have days where I rip up my drawings and cry out of frustration, but I try my best to stay in the mindset of "it's still progress, it's still a step towards getting where I want to be, and I'm proud of myself for trying". Some days I try to focus on the sensations of making things. How much I love using a brush, how cute and clean my desk is, how much I love sitting and thinking with music in the background, how good my candles/incense smells, how lucky I am to have my brain and hands working well. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. But it doesn't mean you're not an artist :>