Programming

I'd say stay away from open source software from now. I love Foss but it's almost never beginner friendly. You should start with a commercial engine like unity which is free for personal use. Bro code on YouTube has a really good course on C#. You will need to learn how to code for games. And you will need to learn c# for unity. The good thing is that c# is an amazing beginner programming language, it won't hold your hand to a fault like python but you also won't shoot yourself in the foot like with c++. C# is also quite similar to Java so a lot of what you learn will carry over, well that's actually true for almost all c like languages. After you feel comfortable writing simple console applications on c# you should start looking for unity tutorials. Again unity is free for personal use so no need to worry about cost. You can do 2d and 3d games and also android games. So get on it. Don't be too hard on yourself, coding is a skill that you train same with game development. If you feel demotivated just remember that coding is telling a highly processed rock how to think and that basically makes you a modern day wizard