Hi, I'm Emma (she/her).
So, long story short:
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I am lonely
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I wanna befriend some local LGBTQ+ people here in southeast Louisiana
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I can't send/receive direct messages to/from Lemmy users with this Mbin account, but I have a Lemmy account I can use if necessary
About me:
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I'm a 90s kid
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I'm a trans girl
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I began transition, including HRT, January of 2023
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I suffer from OCD
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I'm a Linux nerd, kinda
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I use PureOS on my Librem 5
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I use QubesOS on my Librem 14
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I use pfSense on my firewall/router
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I'd like to think that I'm somewhat good at writing
I'd love to meet some LGBTQ+ people, but I don't know how. The only support group I've found is exclusively online via Zoom, and only Facebook users are allowed. As a privacy and security obsessed person, I'm totally excluded, and I just feel so trapped right now. I want to meet people offline, and I just don't know how.
And I'm really sad right now thinking about how much I love the friends I've made online in the past few months and how I feel so isolated from them.
It hurts to post this, but I feel that I must. I don't expect to find anyone, but I have to try.
Edit:
DMs between Lemmy and Kbin/Mbin still do not work, so here is my Lemmy account:
@Emma0@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Hey Emma, hope ya find someone. You're a very cool person and it's been nice knowing you online. Being isolated sucks.
Thanks cowboy, and yes it's been nice.
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But I also feel like I've been numb for so long that this sudden capacity for feeling, mixed with these new relationships, has just melted me down to my very core and left me more distraught than I otherwise would have been. It's one thing to be lonely, but it's quite another to feel so connected and loved by others and yet unable to ever be in their presence. I was more positive when I made my original post searching for friends, but this time I'm just...I don't even know. I came here to distract myself, and I figured I may as well do this now, call out to the void to save me. But there's no one coming. I don't have hope that anything will come of these threads. I don't think I'm likely to find anyone. I just wish this were all easier. I wish I could just meet my friends and feel a sense of calm wash over me, allowing me to relax and breath easy, knowing everything will be okay. I need to be strong for others, but I also struggle to be strong for myself, and I wish I could just cry with my friends. I've cried enough tears in solitude, and I don't wanna feel trapped anymore. I can't continue like this; I need an escape from the pain.