I don't want to be someone who intrudes on a community I'm not a part of so mods or OP please delete if I am being in any way intrusive to your community. I've been waiting around debating if I should post. Really I just want OP to know people are listening and caring.
I read your original post and became emotionally invested as I think we all can relate to your hopes here. OP you have a mature reaction to the situation. My heart goes out to you! I'm still rooting for you OP! Someone wonderful will come your way.