The lighter side of ADHD
The unfortunate corrolary to this is that if you are fueling your tasks with anger and caffeine, letting go of that anger can be supremely demotivating. Trying to be a healthier person to be around can turn around and sap your will for your efforts. At least that is how my experience has been.
So you're saying substitute more caffeine, or are we gonna try a different emotion?
How about envy? Pick one person to be really jealous of and let that drive you to new heights. Or become a Sith.
Maybe the upgrade to this can be righteous anger, like an anime hero, lots of screaming and yelling but it's out of raw determination rather than hatred for all things lol.
I found that once I had my life on track, being diagnosed in my late thirties, it was easier to tackle life without medication. Because methylphenidate is not an easy drug to take. I would swear profusely even when not doing anything and it killed my appetite, which was bad because I rarely ate anyway. It’s just I was hungry but it made me feel sick to eat.
When there are more negatives than the problems it’s fixing I had to make a choice to rawdog life. It just means I have no control over whether I do something. Want to play Minecraft so bad but can’t find the drive, guess we just watching YouTube until Monday then being sad it’s back to work.
Atomoxetine joins the chat. In cases where drugs with focus on dopamine don't work, such for noradrenaline usually do.
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It would be funny if it wasn't so sad. You just described my life, but without the diagnosis or trying meds.
caffeine weed and anger
chefs kiss triceratopseleventy
I'm over here doing both AND while medicated. Though most of the rage comes from bumping heads with people that don't have ADHD and keep pulling my attention away from shit. Sometimes the normal "hey check this out real quick shit is funny" or to dump a different problem/task on me. Because I am unfortunately the person that has fixed enough weird shit and they seem to refuse to remember stuff I have shown them (time after time after time). Which means I get stuck having to rush all the shit I was doing before the interruptions and end up staying later than everyone else to not forget what I need to do the next day.
I have begun giving a "me warning" to new folks to let them know that I might come across as an absolute asshole and very short with them at times. But that they should just be aware that I am not actually mad at them personally, and to be direct with me right back if I go too far and say something (like "too far man" or similar) as I will actually try to correct myself.
Ripping me out of my forced hyperfocus absolutely infuriates me. I worked very very very very very very hard to get into a mindset that will allow me to work, and it is so fragile.. please do not interrupt if I ask you not to.
I suffered a job exactly like this for almost a decade. Public facing, helpdesk kind of work. Obviously I was also assigned office-like busywork as well.
So the entire job was just having my brain ripped between "What was I doing?" And "Excuse me fix my problem sir, but let me ramble about how frustrated it makes me for like 20 minutes first because you're cheaper than a therapist!"
I'm still trying to undo how much that place screwed me up.
cries in high school teacher
I'm trying to get out of the field but it isn't easy. I chose the wrong career 😆 🤣 😂
Sympathetic hugs for you! 🫂
I feel your pain friend. I'm sure you're a fantastic teacher though! But I bet the constant focus-breaking and admin side of things puts a serious strain on you!
I found myself teaching a martial arts class regularly as a side thing. (Classes across all age groups), and even though people think I'm "so outgoing", lemme tell ya...the martial arts part is the least exhausting part of it! 😂
I hope you find something that still feels fulfilling but allows you to work more naturally. :)
Thanks so much for this post! ❤️
I actually did get good at it and even experienced the same via masking. Unfortunately, masking and perfectionism are not sustainable over a whole career and what sucks is that the teaching field tries to (in my experience) keep people within the education discipline via guilt and a lack of training outside of the classroom.
Anyway, I don't totally regret my career but it's time to move on. Thanks for the good wishes and response, friend.
Are two 64oz mugs a day, a sign I might have ADHD? 🤔 I feel like I get nothing from it, but nice warm feeling.
All the comments about caffeine doing nothing... I used to have that problem, until I tried NOS. Not sure what the fuck it really does different than, like, Red Bull or Monster or Rockstar, but it perks me up and allows me to harness the power of hyperfocus on anything and not just things I like.
It doesn't say it has meth in it but... 🤔
Red Bull, Monster, and Rockstar are all relatively low on caffeine as far as energy drinks go. Typical is 200-300mg for a can for average ones.
It's got the same 320mg for a tall can as Monster does. The one ingredient I can see on the label that NOS has that the others don't is something called "inositol." Which sounds like something they made up.
Could just be pladebo effect or a mood difference because I actually like the taste more. I got sick of guarana flavor back when Bawls was still around.
The name implies it's a sugar alcohol, but it appears to have an impact on dopamine and serotonin, so that could be helping you.
Both Monster and Red Bull have inositol in it, at least in Sweden.
Yup, I drink 12 cups of a coffee a day. So, there.
gotta get those numbers up
Lmao. Working on it.
buy little cups.
./points to temple.exe
That was me when I worked in an office with a fancy coffee maker. Current place I'm down to maybe 2 cups (well, they're XL, but there's only 2 of them!)
I go through phases... I'll drink tons of coffee then end up not touching it for days or even weeks at a time. (Right now it's been nearly a week.)
I’ve managed to get myself into just one in the morning then rotate between water and tea for the rest of the day. I always crave coffee but it makes me feel shit and tired.
Ya coffee doesn't do anything for me, but I do like the taste. It's mainly about just having something warm to drink, whether it's coffee, tea or hot chocolate for me.
Just a raw dogging life, One puff at a time thc nicotine sometimes a cup of caffeine.
I genuinely don't know what my other options are
I'm fuelled purely by anger.
And hard drugs.
What's the deal with the shopped on safety gear?
No idea
Yup! By the latter quarter of my time in college I was up to 10 cups of strong af black coffee before midday, and a quarter pack of cigarettes. Then the pandemic hit and it was harder than ever getting cigs and was forced to quit cold turkey when I got infected. Not dealing with traffic also made the anxiety I got from coffee not managable and had to tone that down too.
I've managed to reduce my coffee intake to once a day at most, early in the AM. Mostly for the flavour. A good shot of espresso with condensed milk does wonders, but will leave me somewhat jittery since my resistance has dropped so much.
I kinda miss drinking coffee from 6am to 10pm.
decaf! it has saved my entire cardiac system lol
Oh, does decaf make good espresso? I got pretty spoiled with my taste, living in a coffee producing country, lol.
decaffeinating likely removes a few flavor compounds inevitably, but in my semi coffee snob experience I've had plenty of flavorful decaf espresso