Melbourne

Shaved, showered, washed my hair, started getting ready for in-office day but forgot I didn't book a desk. Login and notice none of my team have booked desks. Login to Teams to find messages that none of my team are going in today. Proceed to not put on pants. Today's alright so far.

SNRI withdrawal is fucked up. My heart feels like it's jumping in my throat and ticking erratically and my body feels tingly and wrong af.

Don't accidentally (or intentionally) cold-turkey antidepressants; No Bueno!

• a PSA from your local forgetful potato

One trio of totally overloaded soft tacos

opening up the windows finally, gotta be honest the place smells a bit after 3 people 4 pets inside for basically 3 days.

Aircon at the office isn't working. After three days in a rental with no aircon, I want to fucking die.

I know I'll be bitching about it in a few weeks but right now that fresh cold air coming through the window is like manna from heaven after still feeling that residual overheated feeling today. Now this is good sleeping weather. Not to mention the soft drizzle. 😊 Wash away all that hot grime and dust please!

I’m still really tired. I have no interest in work today

Bleh, feeling drained today and got a headache incoming as well.

This is going to be make for an unpleasent day even longer :(

Went and got my hair cut on Friday thinking I'd spend the weekend doing a bit of body maintenance and letting the kid dye my hair. I did none of that. I barely left the couch.

Took my anti-sad this morning, three days late. Stayed up all night and still haven't crashed. Had a roll for lunch. I can feel my brain is not quite right, I'm lagging, but I just can't get sleep to take me.

At this point I'll have to aim to be in bed around 9ish or 10 so I don't fuck my sleep cycle up much more.

Too hot to sleep, so I set my alarm to help my partner get up in the morning and parked myself in front of BG3.

I didn't realise it was 2am wtf

But I have no obligations besides making a coffee for the snoring hottie when it's time. Back to Faerûn I go!

Pulled an all nighter. When will I crash? Nobody knows!

and so it goes

and so it goes

and so it goes

and so it goes

Some time ago I ordered a couple of things at a great price (as they are discontinued items), but the package never arrived. After broken promises and much hassle I got my money back, but was annoyed not to have the items. I have now found them on eBay and have bought them from USA for only a few dollars more than the original order, so am now waiting again with fingers crossed for pakige.

I gave Melbcat the last of a tin of Coles wet food and it was refused like it has been for like a week... then I opened the Woolies stuff of the same flavour and gave her a spoonful. That was eaten eagerly. So I gave her more with her usual meds and it all got eaten. I could have been getting her normal medications into her this whole time.

Was there something up with the freshness of that tin or is the Coles brand now not to her taste? I have so many more tins of that brand because Coles delivery slots cost a fraction of Woolies 😢

(Ideally I'd be shopping Aldi or IGA but require delivery. Also the moobean has very specific needs in cat food and I only just found home brands she can eat)

Glad I didn't have any plans for the long weekend. It was hot and I got sick so simple days at home were good

The ole rego payment has a bit of bite to it. Need something to chase it down.

Fantastic parenting advice from 1868: do not pet children or give them candy, it will cause imbecility and diphtheria.

And smashed my phone screen. Gah!

Back from the bellarine.

Was on an empty tum tum so was going to grab some sushi from Southern x for the first time in years.. $3.70 for a piddly little teryaki chickan handroll. Why you gotta do me like that.

Noped out and now fully invested in cooking cashew chicken.

Morning dog walk bonus from crime suburb - about $50 in loose change in two till drawers smashed up at the back of the car park. I guess the thieves couldn't see the change or didn't care for it, kids these days.

There is a part-time job that looks good and I'm going to apply for it tomorrow.
To do:

• Complete Seek profile
• Write up that little blurb on the top of the CV
• Tailor-make the skills list
• Cover letter

The damp paper towel and microwave trick for dried out cookies works a treat! Obviously not perfect, but close enough. I’ll take it!

Dropped off my stuff at the op shop first thing. There was an appalling amount of mess they were cleaning up that had been dumped there by people over the weekend, then probably sifted through and scattered by people taking stuff.

Ugh, feeling pretty average after a relatively sleepless night last night. Forgot the silence of the complex yesterday wasn’t the norm and right on cue this morning, the lovely banging of renovations that would have made me homicidal, if I’d actually had the energy.

Also the Swedish Death Cleaning show or SDC as it shall be known is pretty much Queer Eye w/out the self glow-up. We all know what a sook I am. I need not to be watching that on top of being tired.

Too many chores today… Pick up shoes overdue from the shoe place (hopefully they’re still there after I keep forgetting), dry cleaner next door (Fam, I lived in that trench coat while I was away.), pick up my two-wheels (Did I mention that on top of service, repairs have practically broken the bank? Yep, several k later. That’s a holiday gone right there. Kill me now.)

Also, work be expecting me back a day earlier. I had a sneaking suspicion the date was wrong, but ran with it because I was travelling. An extra day or not. I don’t know whether to just rip the bandaid off. This is a luxury because I’m usually right back at it.

So much housework to catch up on. Necessary housework.

Must not over do it.

Had a long and productive catchup today to get my brain in motion again with Life shit at least briefly. Sometimes I am amazed and so grateful that people actually want to meet up with me and catch up for hours - maybe I am less amazed than before as my self-esteem isn't quite as shit, but still. I am so happy to have these people in my life.

Stoopid pre-employment check didn't like my selfie so I got some help to take another one, of course the silly company in the US (they made zero effort to localise their website - and proceeded to ask for more points of ID than I've ever had to provide even for Australian immigration purposes) So they won't process it until late tonight; bummer as that's one day wasted. I hope they give it the OK tonight so HR here can progress with me tomorrow and fingers crossed I can start next week, I know the manager would like me on asap.

It's nice to have the door open :)

Thought I was going to sleep in the loungeroom tonight, but can't get comfortable enough on the cheapie couch/futon I bought as a stopgap.
Instead I've crawled onto bed with the little fan and a couple of the other windows open for extra air.
At least I don't start work until midday tomorrow. Well, today.

After an exciting day full of things like sorting my tea towel collection and washing the cover on my couch I think it is time to start on Taco Tuesday.

Zzzzzzzzz

meow

Low 30s and sunny again next weekend. Thank fuck the minimums look better though. Might not really get autumnal until after Easter at this rate

Jesus the bruises on my tummy and inner thigh from my scooter fall are huge and gruesome now. They look like big tattoos of aged raw steak.