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I'm a week late on rent due, I only paid half, I had to call all my credit card companies and utilities to tell them what's going on. And now my check engine light turned on because the bastard is misfiring. My wife lost her dad which fucked us both up due to missing a ton of work, and I don't know what to do. I'm tired of asking my family for help, the for bank is only available while I'm working, I work 2 jobs. My wife is working too and we're even took in a person to live in our spare room.

How in the world do people survive in this world when they don't even have time to be happy? I use upside for gas and shopping I'm enrolled in every stores rewards program, I make my own cleaning supplies to save money and cook from scratch. What else could I do to save money? Also with the looming government shutdown I'm going to be furloughed for however long that is. Also what are some apps you guys use to help save money? I guess this is a lot of questions.

The few conversations I've had there have been unproductive and inflammatory. While even in other instances when I've said something someone disagreed with they would at least support their statement. Also no one would tell me why the "Confused Unga Bunga" meme is racist but they keep accusing me of it. I'm all for open discussions but even the comments there are so angry and toxic.

Edit: I'm reading every comment and taking everything people said and considering all sides. My stance on the phrase has changed but I am still hesitant about giving hexbear a chance. I'll sleep on it though.

I made the egg noodles and the broth myself using last night's chicken. only shitty because we have no onions and I'm broke.

Since coming to lemmy I will browse all vs local and top by day. There is a solid amount of AI generated porn that has many votes in a 24 hour period.

To me the whole vibe is plastic tits and "smooth" skin. It looks off even when done well and all the faces look the same. Is anything it's more a technical feat than what helps me beat my meat. Also it's nearly all white women or pale Asians.

During the pandemic I came out as non-binary due to my personal feelings on how I perceived myself and the way I am.

Lately over this past year I've been asking myself how do I feel. Many thought have been going through my head like I'd be happier if I was born a girl and I've always wondered what it would be like to have a vagina.

I'm also under immense stress in my personal life that may be exasperating these feelings but they existed before the stress.

My face is scraggly, my legs are a hairy mess. Thankfully I have a safe space with my wife who knows what I'm going through and a friend who listens and offers support. My biggest fear is addressing my family. My mom is still misgendering me and my trans BIL who has fully transitioned. She still lives us and I think she loves him but has fucked up ideas. My dad who has been divorced from my mom for nearly my whole life is full blood republican who believes in personal freedoms from his time in the military but I also don't know his feelings on trans rights.

I know I'm ranting but I decided I need to crack this shell and figure things out.

I don't know the first thing about makeup also clothes shopping is overwhelming.