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What's been the craziest moment of your life? (discuss.tchncs.de)
submitted 3 months ago by dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de to c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
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I saw this asked on another instance, thought I’d ask it here and I’ll post my response from there in the comments as I think it felt cathartic.

Doesn't need to be a life or death situation, just any moment in your life where you found yourself saying "Holy shit, I can't believe this is happening!"

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[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 13 points 3 months ago

I could list a few. 

- Christmas when I was about 10 I found out my dad wasn’t really my dad. Thanks nana. The man who raised is my dad to me still. 

- Leading on from the last one. Later in life my biological father got in touch and giving it all the life complicated spiel. I was indifferent but figured sure I’ll meet. Turns out he was back with my mum and now I’m back at home and he ain’t ever act like a dad, and now he doesn’t see if other daughters since he got back with my mum. Dudes a joke. 

- as you might have noticed I’ve had a tumultuous childhood. Mum spent my formative years flipping between my non-bio dad and the man who I have a half brother with, who I ain’t seen in 30 years. So I spent the time sat in the back of a car whilst she called men to her friend or went in pubs to pour pints on their head. 

- one time we came home and saw burglars robbing our flat. Probably something to do with my half brothers dad. 

- one time as a young adult, the man that raised me was out getting drunk in his mates house. My mum made me break the door down and she went in all guns blazing grabbing a golf club and going ham. 

- Fell in a canal at night off my box on Xanax and thought I might die. Threw out my stashed and literally nearly died from withdrawals. 

- surprising not been assaulted many times cause I used to be a righteous mouthy cunt when drunk, i don’t drink at all as I saw how it broke my dad, well my mum did but alcohol didn’t help. 

- watched as my mum and dad had a loveless marriage and at the start he used to hit her, then later she bullied his ass for decades. Like take his wages and refuse him money for cigs. 

- on way to school vacation and got told my dad was going prison for driving drunk whilst banned. 

- saw my tea dumped on her head. 

- it’s all coming back now. One time my dad tried to drive the car into our house but it got stuck in the bushes. 

That’s just a few, but yeah it’s no wonder I’m fucked, not an excuse as I’ve made progress and got a good job now. Not sure I’m happy but I’ve just shut off the stuff I grew up around as what else can I do.

[–] PerogiBoi@lemmy.ca 13 points 3 months ago (1 children)

I found out that my dad had a secret girlfriend who was my age. A student of his. He also had a secret job, working as a consultant for Putin’s science advisor.

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 6 points 3 months ago (1 children)

I am sorry you had to find out about your dads secret life, I can’t imagine what that felt like.

As for the Putin thing. I have so many questions.

[–] PerogiBoi@lemmy.ca 5 points 3 months ago

Without getting into traceable details, government science advisors often work with large universities so that’s where the connection is.

[–] velox_vulnus@lemmy.ml 12 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) (1 children)

Joblessness and social isolation? After graduating at September 2022, unlike other students who already secured their jobs around March, I had nothing. And it's still the same for me. I dread applying to jobs. It fills me with so much fear, I don't bother. At one point I had a really bad panic attack, that I deleted all my Git accounts online, and every project backup, shut down my laptop, doing nothing for almost two month except staring the roof, because I was so done. I could not believe that I had sacrificed my teen, getting isolated, losing out on socializing, partying and all that shit. I convinced myself that this would reward me, because those cringey grind-set YouTubers told me, and that I was probably the main character or something. I completed my engineering degree with such great difficulty, because I was severely depressed, I lost all my sleep, I stopped attending classes, waking up at 12 in the noon. I'm going to be 24, and I've successfully wasted two years without any experience, nor any degree to back my use of time.

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 6 points 3 months ago

I can relate to this, although I didn’t go the degree route to end up as a software developer and in not sure how much of this will be transferable, but you literally have plenty of time and you can make vast changes in a short period of time.

I completed a bootcamp, but I just couldn’t perform in interviews and I got so anxious I would either clam up or just talk too much, ADHD too much.

I was devastated as I pinned all my hopes of being happy on this career change. So I did another bootcamp and again sucked at interviewing. I was making loads of projects on GitHub but not progressing. Suffice to say I managed to get fired by a small company and although the pay isn’t amazing, and I’m still insecure about my skills. You will get hired if you persist.

The other point I want to make, is I am still not happy, I am happier to be doing something I enjoy but it’s still a grind man. My employers didn’t care about my GitHub and didn’t even look at it, didn’t check my portfolio and really they wanted someone that was capable of following their coding practices rather than someone who would be pig headed about all they knew.

It also matters what roles you’re applying for. I was never going to be hired by London banks as I just didn’t fit in or have that mindset, although I interviewed for a few. I found my place in small company that will help me grow my skills and confidence. Maybe in the future I can move somewhere else, but still not a massive company. I have friends working in Canary Wharf and they have maybe 10% the coding I get to do, because they have to go through review processes and such and maybe what they build doesn’t even go live ever.

I guess I just want to say if massive salary isn’t your only goal and you just want to have a somewhat fun job where you solve problems then stick at it, but you first have to get out of the rut, which is the hardest thing in the world. You’ll need to reach out to friends, family or people on here for support to get a routine. Sleep is the hardest. Stop sleeping in the day if you do that, I like to take walks when I finish work before dinner time just so I don’t sleep. Then you can sleep at night, then you’ll be able to have a routine. Once you have a routine you just have to grind out the soul destroying interviews until you find one that lands. I know it can be disheartening, but honestly if I can get hired then anybody can.

You’re 24 and I made it at late thirties. Now I will confess I am lucky (sad) enough to be back at my mums so I was able to save money and not stress so much.

Another thing that helped me no end was working at Apple. I started as a Christmas temp and moved to the Genius Bar. Working there is something else. Like everybody had another side hustle, whether it be photography, music making or whatever. When you’re surrounded by people like that it’s kinda inspiring. Plus you get to handle problem solving too and really work on the social skills required. For instance talking to customers whilst typing on an iPad is hella hard at first as it feels rude not to be looking at them. Plus handling all the assholes etc.

This is long now and I digress a lot, but essentially, even if cliche, you can make it. You just have to stick at it. Even through the hardest of times. For me keeping my mind busy and routine is key otherwise I’m prone to wallow and wonder why nothing changes.

Also, the grass ain’t not greener over here. Perhaps we are not destined for happiness but we can have a less horrible time you know.

[–] retrieval4558@mander.xyz 12 points 3 months ago (1 children)

The strangest moment of my life was probably when I found myself doing DMT with a Willie Nelson impersonator in his mobile home. He had a pit bull which was running around with an erection.

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 4 points 3 months ago (1 children)

That does sound very interesting.

I’ve always wanted to try DMT but it doesn’t seem to be a thing we can get here in the UK.

[–] retrieval4558@mander.xyz 4 points 3 months ago (2 children)

It was homemade in this case 🫠. Little involved but doable... or so I hear

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 5 points 3 months ago

Very interesting. Off I go…

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 3 points 3 months ago (1 children)

Turns out you can literally find very detailed guides online for making this stuff and with not too crazy equipment.

[–] retrieval4558@mander.xyz 2 points 3 months ago

Have fun be safe!

[–] HEXN3T@lemmy.blahaj.zone 9 points 3 months ago (2 children)

Witnessing someone's bad trip. A very, very, very bad trip. The kind of incident with a "before" and an "after". Worse is that it was completely avoidable, had I been a little more concerned about others, rather than myself. I can never forgive myself for what happened that day..

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 9 points 3 months ago

Although I don’t know the details of what entailed on the night, I do believe that people should forgive but don’t forget as holding on to things like that isn’t good for you and this applies to forgiving yourself, but not forgetting so that you don’t make the same mistake again.

[–] Hadriscus@lemm.ee 3 points 3 months ago (2 children)

Oich. Which substance was that ? So I don't go near it

[–] tetris11@lemmy.ml 4 points 3 months ago

Kitten huffing

[–] HEXN3T@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 3 months ago (1 children)

It was just LSD. Please practice harm reduction 🙏

[–] Hadriscus@lemm.ee 2 points 3 months ago (1 children)

How do I practice this ?

[–] HEXN3T@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 3 months ago (1 children)

https://www.drugusersbible.com/ (Harm reduction and personal accounts)

https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Main_Page (Harm reduction, database)

https://www.erowid.org/ (Database with many personal accounts and some tips)

https://dancesafe.org/ (Test kits and some harm reduction advice)

The most important resources in my opinion.

[–] Hadriscus@lemm.ee 2 points 3 months ago

Nice, thanks. LSD is probably something I'll never try anyway

[–] tatterdemalion@programming.dev 5 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) (2 children)

Probably climbing up the West Ridge of Quandary Peak in CO. I was with 3 college friends. I didn't expect the altitude to affect me as much as it did, but I got pretty winded. It was a little snowy and wet, so our holds were sketchy at times. Along the ridge it's class 3 climbing, and the crux is a crack in a steep rock with a dangerous fall behind you. That was probably the biggest adrenaline rush I've ever had.

Thankfully we were greeted by some friendly mountain goats on our descent.

Here's a good video of the climb. The harder stuff starts about 9 minutes in.

https://youtu.be/CN5P4aRxnu0?si=O0MSyjB_RJTZ4fmj

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 3 points 3 months ago (1 children)

That’s scary as hell, but also looks quite rewarding.

I’ve often been curious about climbing as a fitness endeavour but I fear it’s too late now and I’m weak haha.

[–] tatterdemalion@programming.dev 4 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago)

If I tried this again today I would ~~perish~~ need to be rescued

But with discipline and training, this climb is very achievable! You don't need to be a technical climber for this one.

[–] Hadriscus@lemm.ee 2 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago)

Cooool I was expecting my hands to start sweating but it looks like something I could almost do ! Nice view. Loved the drone shots

[–] unn@lemmy.ca 4 points 3 months ago (1 children)

When I found out my first love had been cheating on me for 2 months and began gaslighting me, guilt tripping me and gossiping lies, while I was just standing all that in silence. I was already going through very stressful situations as leader of 2 projects that were going downhill in work... I went manic/psychotic, and had a ton of panic attacks, went through disassociation and derealization a lot. I was able to save the projects tho. 1 month later I lost my best friend due to a stupid misunderstanding while manic/psychotic. I had major depression and generalized anxiety for 1 year. To this day I have trauma from all this.

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 4 points 3 months ago

Im sorry you had to go through those things and that you still struggle today with it.

It seems to be a trend that when those closest to you are doing terrible things to you that they’ll gaslight you. Nothing worse than living with a devil, but they’re painting themselves as the saint to your mutual friends. It can really bring out the worst in yourself.

I hope you have some good ways of coping with the trauma now as it isn’t healthy to burden yourself or carry that around.

If you want to chat you can always reach out and I’ll listen with no judgement. 👊

[–] SurpriZe@lemm.ee 3 points 3 months ago (2 children)

Seems strange that all stories here are so mild? Anyone got an actually crazy but real story?

[–] Hadriscus@lemm.ee 4 points 3 months ago (1 children)

One time I tripped but then I caught balance just in time

[–] SurpriZe@lemm.ee 1 points 3 months ago

👏🏼👏🏼

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 4 points 3 months ago

Be the change you want to see…

[–] jobby@lemmy.today 1 points 3 months ago (1 children)

What about Tiananmen Square…?!? That was kinda cool for the CCP!

I wasn’t there but maybe someone here was.

Oh wait.

No.

They were all killed and then turned to mush by tanks repeatedly driving over the bodies and then hosed dune the drains.

GLORY TO THE CCP AND HOW WONDERFUL THEY ARE TO ALL THE PEOPLE.

[–] dependencyinjection@discuss.tchncs.de 1 points 3 months ago

You lost brother?